The Chunky Change

     It has been FOREVER since I last posted about something really, truly relevant to weight loss, and that sucks. I’ve been pretty good overall, but I’ve, once again (no surprise), lost sight of what I’m trying to accomplish. It’s so easy to lose track, but if I really want it, then nothing should stand in my way, right? Right.

     If any of y’all following me have any advice, whether it be for working out, eating right, or staying motivated, please, don’t hesitate to message me. I welcome any and all words of encouragement.

Gotta love rock climbing! #worthit (Taken with instagram)

I am beyond excited to wear this shirt tomorrow! #weepingangels #doctorwho #whovian #dontblink (Taken with instagram)

Let me add that not only am I excited to be wearing this because it’s freaking Doctor Who, but because it’s a size smaller than what I would normally wear, and it fits great. 

     This past month has been so bad for me. I’ve done hardly anything. I’ve not gained back all that I’ve lost, but I have gained back some. There’s no excuse for that. I should, after a month of consistent activity and healthy eating be able to resist the things my body does not need. But because I am weak, I gave in to several cravings. I am so disappointed in myself. I thought I was past all of that, but apparently not. I hate myself for it. 

     My best friend is getting married in a month and a half and as one of her bridesmaids, I want nothing more than to look good. I told myself I would have almost 20 pounds off me by April, and I’m about 13 pounds away from my goal. I am sick. I HAVE to work my butt off these next few weeks in order to get there. 

     I only have one body, and it’s my job to treat it as it deserves. I want a long, healthy life. I don’t want to be stuck in a body that could shorten my life. I’ve been so blessed to not have any health issues this far in my life, but that probably won’t last long if I continue on the way I have lately. I will put myself back on track.

     Never give up, focus on your goals, and you will succeed.     

     It’s been over a month since I made my New Year’s Resolutions, and I’ve been OK at keeping them. Which means I really haven’t. I have gone to the gym, and I have been eating healthier, but I’ve not fully thrown myself into this change. I’ve lost about 8 pounds in a month. I’m happy, but I know I could be down quite a bit more if I had really been serious. Well, I am now.

     I’m at this weird in-between with my pants. I’m smaller than a 14, but not quite able to fit into a 12. Therefor, I look like I have a saggy butt right now. I’m happy that I’m losing inches, I just need a few more to officially be a 12.

     I’ve not posted in a long time, and I don’t know if that has even been noticed, and even if my followers really don’t care, I do. That’s what’s important. I would love for this to make a difference in others’ lives, but if it doesn’t, it did in mine.

Best way to start my Saturday morning (Taken with Instagram at Quarry)

     Man, my thighs are huge. My calves are beautiful, I love my calves. But I wish I could just cut some of the fat on my thighs and be done with them. I ruin jeans all the time because of those suckers rubbing together. I wear spandex under my dresses so I don’t chafe so badly. It’s the worst. 

     Same goes for my arms. I call my upper arms my “sausages” because they are just so big. The fat literally spills over every sleeve I wear. It’s probably the one thing I am most uncomfortable with about my body. Picking out shirts to buy is a pain, because I don’t want sleeves that are too short, yet every sleeve I wear is too short. Such is the life of a fatty.

     I also have this little bump at the base of my neck where fat has just sort of accumulated. I know I can get rid of it, because I know it wasn’t always there. It just makes me feel uncomfortable, like I have a hunchback.

     The final fat spot is the obvious belly. I have a foopah. There is no sugar coating it. I have what I call a “six pack of fat”. I hate it, because some people are able to have the fat on their bodies distribute evenly, while mine just settles any place that feels comfortable. 

     I’m still trying to get into a good ritual that works for me this semester, but I’ve been doing pretty good overall. This past week alone I’ve lost almost 5 pounds. If I keep this up, I know I’ll be able to see a difference in all these areas in my body. 

     Hope everyone is doing great and keeping with their goals!

     First off, seriously follow this blog, they have the most inspirational quotes. I save them to my computer all the time to make motivational desktop backgrounds. Cheesy, I know, but it definitely helps. 

     Second, this little saying has helped me push myself lately at the gym. When I’m on the elliptical, and I start to get tired, that’s when I want to stop, but all I have to do is tell myself 5 more minutes, every 5 minutes, and I’m able to complete a full workout every time. I love it. Try it, I promise it will help.

(via believe-toachieve)

     You guys, you guys, I am feeling so good right now! I’ve been doing so good this week! I bought a ton of super healthy food, and I’ve been as active as I can. I’ve moved into a new apartment, so that kept me pretty busy, but now that I’m all unpacked, there is nothing stopping me from achieving my goal!

     I’m only taking 4 credits this semester, so the majority of my time will be spent working out and just being healthy. There is no excuse this time. Come April, I hope to be at least 20 pounds lighter. I know I can do it if I just continue to do what I’m doing now. 

     I hope all my followers who are struggling with the same thing I am will find inspiration and help in this blog. 

     According to Google Dictionary, the word resolution means a firm decision to do or not to do something. Every year I resolve to lose weight, eat right, and exercise. And every single year I fall short. I almost always end up worse off than when I started.

     Well, this year, instead of making the usual resolutions, ones that are vague or somewhat unrealistic, I decided to really get serious. No more “workout 2 hours a day” straight off the bat. I want to be able to build up to workouts like that, but to try to do that in the beginning is making it almost inevitable for me to fail. Going cold turkey with cutting out white sugar is going to be another hard one. I know I can do it, but I think once again, taking it slow, and limiting myself will be better. 

     So my advice to those who read this, make clear, achievable resolutions. Hold yourself accountable, and let others help you.